Drunk on fun.

Only the good die young

You know Xuan, my clearest first impression of you was when you burst into the Broadcast class with Darren and started poking fun at me over some guy that I liked. I was really annoyed by you then.

Who’d have thought that two years down the road from Polytechnic we’d still have been friends? You grew to be a friend I really really adored.

You, Iman, Cass, Clara… You were part of my Polytechnic clique. All the gatherings that we’d have at Cass’s place, you never missed a single one. Never.

Do you remember what Cass said the last gathering we had at her house at Tanah Merah? She said, that you, me, and Iman were the only ones who never failed to turn up. Clara would sometimes be busy with church, Alvin… missing once in a while… But you never failed to be there. You never failed to entertain with your smiles, your jokes, your absent-minded face and voice.

You had such a generous and joyful spirit. I always thought that nothing could bring you down cause you’d brush it off and just move on with your life.

When I was so down… you gave me a hug and told me that’d we’d go on those speed dating things together. Laugh at all the people, and maybe you and Iman would end up bringing home so cute girls home.

Who’d have guess that you’d have broken your leg and end up lying at home in bed before we could have done that!

The day I picked up Iman from SAFTI I told him, “let’s go visit Xuan.” And three of us ended up in an impromtu jamming session. You with your kick-ass guitar skills… Sunday morning rain is falling… Steal some covers, shed some skin… And clouds are shrouding us in moments unforgettable, you twist to fit the mold that I am in…

I’m so sorry Xuan! I’m so sorry that in the seven months that I’ve been here in Australia I’ve only managed to contact you ONCE. I could have done so much more to have kept in contact with you.

Everytime I picked up the phone to call you I just kept thinking that I’d save it for when we met with the rest and I’d feed you my Shepard’s Pie.

You were the only one who really really really liked it! Cass thought it had too much potato and carbs!!!! Everytime I wanted to make it, I’d think that I’d make it only for you… And now you can’t eat it anymore and I just feel so bad…

Xuan.

I can’t be there for your wake or your funeral. But I want to. I’ll be there in spirit. I’ll always remember you. And your retarded voicemail greeting. “Zixuaaannn…” in your absent-minded voice.

It always made me laugh. You always made me laugh. You always cheered me up. You were so carefree and full of joy.

Good times Xuan. Good times. Always in my heart.

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Aw, but they never told you the price that you pay
For things that you might have done…..
Only the good die young
That’s what i said
Only the good die young
Only the good die young.

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That one party where I got drunk on the Vodka that YOU brought.

Gonna miss you forever Chen Zixuan.

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